As I am writing this, I have a desk piled with work that has to be done before our offices close next week. Needless to say there is still work coming in and everything is urgent. Everyone wants their work done before they go on leave.
So do I actually have the time to write this? No!
And yes, I do feel absolutely bad that I am writing this while I should be working. As I mentioned before I have a very strong work ethic and hate “stealing” the boss’ time. I am usually the first person at work and one of the last to leave. I am also the first person to work late and take work home where needs be (ok, so maybe I am trying to convince myself that it is ok to take the five minutes to write this post and just vent).
The reason I am not working right now? Because I just simply can’t!
The very idea that I have to think about work and about what needs to be done before we close, makes me SCREAM. (Read this as screaming very LOUD in my head). I feel that I could pull my hair out.
It’s not that I don’t want to work, I actually do – but it is like my brain has gone and strike and refuses to think or work!
The very thought of work makes me want to cry! And I want to cry even more about the fact that I feel this way.
I hate feeling like this! I love my work!
I hate feeling unproductive! I cannot even begin to describe how I am feeling right now.
Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I have not had a holiday this year. I have had a few days off but was always available should anything happen at work.
I think my brain just needs a holiday and needs to switch off and rest because at this stage it is FRIED!
**Feeling better- Hell no!**
***Tries to be productive***