This last month has really taken its toll on me.
I have really been running around like crazy with an urgent business rescue application and an arbitration to prepare for. I’m not even going to mention the other work that has been left standing on my desk that I am trying to play catch up with.
I am physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted. I struggle to sleep at night and no matter how early I go to bed, I spend the night tossing and turning. I would estimate that I have had two good night’s sleep the whole month.
Sitting at work, it feels like my brain just does not want to function; I don’t want to think and the last place I want to be right now is here. I really do love my work but I just don’t feel motivated at this stage.
October is not going to be a better month and this time of the year leading up until when our offices close in December is usually very, very busy.
I really do hope that I will be able to take those two days off in October (and nothing comes up to prevent me from taking those few days leave). I also really hope that it will give me that little bit of energy to see the rest of the year through until mid- December.
I am not even going to begin to describe what is going on in my family and personal life right now. I’m even too tired to think about that right now.
I really do feel beyond tired right now.